right now, im here at at my lola's house in carmona, cavite.. i have been staying here since the 26th & so far i am having fun with my stay.. i never had so many bonding times with my lola & i appreciate this a lot..

i have learned to love my lola more & more cuz she really is a great woman.. she had endured a lot of trials & pain in her life but still, she's able to face the day with a smile.. one thing i like about her is the way she tells stories.. everytime we w0uld visit her, she always have a story to tell.. her stories are told with enthusiasm & excitement.. we would often crave for more.. her stories aren't the fictious ones.. her stories are about her life.. her beloved family's life & the gospel of Jesus.. i admire her for her courage..for her faith.. everything about her is admirable..

my lola has taught a lot in just a few days. i have learned lessons that i would have never thought through her mere examples & stories.. i had tons of fun while learning at the same time..

love you,lola..

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have you ever came to the point in your life where you wanted to move on but the trials and challenges in your way are hindering you from doing so? what do you do? struggle or just accept defeat??

for sure, most of us will struggle but later on accept defeat..wouldn't it be better if we woud accept defeat first, then during later on struggle to stand up again? i don't know.. i just feel like it's better than pushing your self too hard when you know that you can no longer push any farther anymore..

the recently concluded sem, was my best sem in UP, (so far).. it's not that i did not enjoy the other semesters i had but it was the 1st time in U.P. that i was alone but not completely alone.. (doesn't make sense right?!..haha..i know)..

as you are all aware of my previous encounter with a relationship that didn't worked out so well, it was my first semester in UP that he's no longer with me.. (no one to meet at McDo philcoa or at FC shed after class. no one to text if my classes suck or my prof gave a surprise quiz & i got a not-so-good result, no one to text me when it's already late & im still at the lib or at a classmate's house or somewhere else..& all those "effects"..)hahaha.. kinda feel like i was alone & im on my own.. (don't get me wrong..it's not a negative feeling..just having sentimental nonsense again)

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on the other hand, i had totally lots of fun with my very recent student organization.. it's none other than the infamous UP-JUNIOR MARKETING ASSOCIATION.. or most commonly known as UP-JMA.. i am so overwhelmed with my application process and i can really say that being with the JMA family had made my life more fun & more interesting.. what i assumed to be a boring & lonely sem turned out to be a semester full of action, of drama, of parties & drinking sessions (of course, i don't drink so all i can do is just party with them) & of course, a lot of marketing work with the best marketers in the campus (he3.. i know im kinda exxagerating things..but i'm sorry that's just the way i feel for them..)

i had lots of experiences that i would have never thought i could encounter.. perhaps JMA made my life whole again.. although i am not that so-active & well-known applicant, i just did what i had to do & made the most out of it.. i can only be an applicant once (that is, if i would get accepted), why not make it a better one, right!?

id be making another writeup about what happened to me (the detailed ones) some other time..perhaps during the break..he3..

this is it for now..

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wohoho..so now that i've finally expressed my insights for the on-the-verge-of-ending 1st semester of Academic Year 04-05, i felt like giving you an update of what has been happening to my nearly messed-up life..

why nearly-messed-up?! cuz my life hasn't gone that bad..there are still things to be happy & thankful for..inspite of those (plenty)unpleasant ones..

for the past 5 months, i have been living in a complete struggle..struggle against the tormenting thoughts inside of my not-so-big brain.. struggle against the cold & unmerciful emotions that i had to endure almost every night.. struggle to sleep, cuz sleep came lesser and lesser.. struggle to be good.. struggle to be perfect.. struggle to live up to the expectations of people around me..

i had been trying to live a life in accoradance to my beliefs and my parents' ideals but i have failed.. i did not stop & im not stopping.. it's just that i don't have control of my life & all i had to do was to shout from the dark pits that i fell in & waited til somebody hears me & would be kind enough to help me reach the surface again..better if that someone would help me reach the top..(which i know for a fact is longer than the previous journeys i took)..

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in exactly 2 weeks from now, 1st sem AY 04-05's finally coming to an end.. Oct. 2's d last day of class but finals will be finiched on the 16th..whew!finally!! i just can't believe it that 5 months has just passed by so quickly..i haven't filled my blog with a lot of entries though there were a lot to tell for the past 5 months..

the sem wasn't that tight for me anyways..i took all the remaining 3 GEs in my list, 1 MST & 2 AH..i had 19 units this sem..not way far behind but just right..others were taking about 15-18 units per sem..mine's not that bad after all..

Math 53 - Calculus, MTThF 7:00-8:00-15..5 units.. (which i dropped on the last day of dropping because i missed an exam & i was not allowed to have a special exam..bad cheetah..i really felt depressed about having to drop the subject..it wasn't an ordinary subject to let go easily..i spent most of my extra time in advance reading & answering sample exams & as if it was just as easy as that to drop it like a bomb about to explode in a few seconds..but it wouldn't..it woud only add a mess to my rotting T.O.R.)

FS106 - General Microbiology, Mth 11:30-1:00 TF 8:30-11:30.. 5 units.. (my prof's really kind & really cool..MDdLF are her initials..i never heard her shout or ever raised her voice at any of us..she was always kind but her kindness made us respect her..we didn't even try to violate her rules both in the lecture & lab classes..oh, except for the closed shoes policy in the lab..we wore slippers & sandals at times..hahaha..& oh, some mishaps in the lab that was definitely out of our little hands' control..cool?!she was my 1st prof who ever shared quotes right after class discussion..she calls it MICROBIAL THOUGHT FOR THE DAY..what else would be the quotes be about?!microbiology, of course!..)

BIO1 - Contemporary Biological Topics, MTh 8:30-10:00..3 units.. (my last GE subject in the MST domain..it wasn't a pain-in-the-b*tt & it was kinda enjoying in a way..it wasn't like the ordinary Biology class where the teacher would discuss everything..but instead it was more of an interactive class where everyone has the chance to share latest news aticles or breakthroughs in the field of Biology- Life, Reproduction,Genetics,Evolution, Ecology, etc..every after the prof's lecture, each & everyone of us were required to read/ discuss an article in front of the class..it was really cool..not the traditional type & i found it very amusing..)

HUM 1 - Humanities, TF 11:30-1:00..3 units.. (my classes were all cool this sem..& this class really has a lot to add to it..starting from the subject itself, then to the teacher & then my classmates.. im a self-acclaimed movie buff & this subject has really made me one..i watched movies that i had never heard of before & in the end made me realize how good the movies were..it wasn't just simply reaction paper on the films but there were questions asked & they really needed some good thinking & analysis....aside from the movie escapades, the class discussions were filled with humor & laughter but with a certain depth.. they weren't mere merry-makings..they were moments of teaching & learning not in the conventional way..students were allowed to butt-in in the middle of a discussion..students can speak their mind out loud..there wasn't room for skepticism 'cuz you won't feel its presence anywhere.. our prof captured our attention, our mind, humoring us & presenting us with lightmindedness but the effect was the complete opposite..we searched deeper into our thoughts to come up with answers for those light-minded facts.. we were all learning, at the same time having fun..)

KOM 1 - Kommunikasyon, TF 1:00-2:30..3 units.. (at first i thought that luck was with me this sem..cuz i got no terror professor to meet at least twice a week for 5 solid months....but i found myself wrong for the nth time..this was probably the worst class i have this sem..not because of my performance... i know how worst i am when i comes to sentence constructions in Filipino..i am perfectly aware of that but it seems to me that this subject has given me more pressure than the rest.. it was infuriating that it was only a GE course & yet it's demand for time & attention was high..it was my last subject for the day & i had many times prayed for it to finish quickly..perhaps it was because of the unpredictable attitude of our prof.. i'm just glad i was able to endure her tantrums & fickle mindedness..)

PE 3 - Advanced Badminton, no(2) unit.. (did i forget to mention i still have a PE class?!i should have finished it within my 2 yrs of UP existence but unfortunately i wasn't able to do so cuz i had filed LOA last semester..so here i was..trying to catch up with my delayed subject loads.. every Wed, @ 11am to 1pm.. doing strokes, techiques, drills that would make me a better "rakista"..a badminton rakista..hahaha..my thighs & arms often ached after a few hours but as the months passed by, i finally got accustomed to it.. 2 hrs of smashes, drives, drops..constant vigilance, careful not to let that yellow, shuttlecock hit the ground but without losing poise..i had a lot of good times playing with really awesome, strong & will-powered players ..the Cream of the Crop of the Badminton PE classes for the past 2 or 3 sems.. one couldn't easily get into a PE 3 class unless he passed a PE 2 class with outstanding grades..1.75 being the lowest.. well, i'm not as good as most of my classmates but somehow i still had an edge in playing..i learned a lot as the weeks & months progressed.. badminton helped me a lot to think & act at the same time..with agility..& with speed.. being always alert..always ready..always prepared..always on the lookout for the coming of the swift shuttlecock..

whehew!!!5 sems down..6 more to go!!!

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waah...i couldn't just forgive myself for being damn so stupid.. i would like to call myself a certified OAKS.. yeah, an O.A.K.S. as in One of A Kind Stupid!!! that's what i am... i can't seem to end up a day without ever getting myself in trouble.. without screwing up!!

today's our practical exam in my Microbiology class..that's a major subject & I'm quite doing well (so far).. i just can't seem to understand what went wrong with me.. i prepared myself for the practical exam last night & even woke up a bit earlier than the usual to kinda condition myself of what's gonna come up.. at 8:45, our professor showed up & usehered the 1st two pairs into the lab.. I got paired wiht Maida Gamboa (a 2nd yr student w/ the same course as mine) & we started working on our examination right away.. (as soon as we were told).. now here comes my dilemna (s):



- the burner just won't open right..i used up 4-5 matchsticks before i finallly saw the flames.. how stupid of me!! i have done this so quickly & without hassle almost twice a week in our lab sessions & just now, now that i'm having my practical exam it just won't trun out right!!!!

- the show's got started.. i haven't told you of my mischievous not-worth-praising acts.. while picking out which pippette to use for dilution, i burned my thumb with the metal pippette case cuz i was looking for a 10ml one. To my dismay, i found none & got myself a burned thumb..

- but that's not all, Maida & i have to take turns in the dilution process up the the -1000000.. i had to admit im not very good with an aspirator but im doing just fine.. but today, i really suck!! it seemed to me that my prof thought it was the 1st time i ever got hold of one.. it was as if i don't know how to use it.. only 2 pairs were working at that time (cuz you see, our prof was kinda systematic & had us have our exam by schedule..) well, after much sucking..(got to suck the liquid sample in the test tube through an aspirator & i really sucked at it), we were finally done with the dilution..woohoo!!!!

- guess this was the last of my overturned boat trip for the day.. the last part of the exam was to pour plate some kinda green solution into petri dishes without the help of your partner.. we gotta do this on our own.. maida & i had 6 petri dishes to work on & we split it into 2, 3 for each of us.. my hand was skahing & i can';t seem to understand what was wrong with my hands this morning.. it was as if my hands wanted me to fail my last practical exam for the sem.. it took me about 1-2 mins with one petri plate which should have been the time covered for all those 3.. during our experiments, this was what i loved to do.. pour plating.. although i had difficulty opening the petri dish with one hand at first, i was able to get along in the succeeding experiments..

i just hope i won't fail the exam.. after all, i'm kinda confident i performed the other tasks well.. i kinda just sucked on the other stuff.. besides, our prof was the one with the most understanding heat.. (lucky for me.. she's also my program adviser)...

well, i;m hoping the day would turn out right.. i just hope it would..

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another week just passed by. its a start of a new week. i had a busy week last week, not attending most of my classes & i consider that "busy"..

after bein such a movie buff, which much to my dismay turned out to be a movie crap, i was in to books this time. Books galore! would be a proper term i would have to use for my book hunting attitude for the past few days. I just couldn't help myslef with a book. after finishing one, i'd crave for another & another.


To Kill A Mocking Bird by Harper Lee was kinda good though it took me about 2 1/2 days to finish my reading. I wasn't satisfied with that time cuz i could have read other books with that lot of time. anyways, it was worth reading & worth the time, too.

Pay It Forward by Catherine Ryan Hyde was my top 1 so far. It was, well, so good to be true. heart warming. soul-shattering. tear- jerking. truly touching. the unbelievable seem possible in a beautifully written story of a boy's belief in the goodness of humanity..-- even to sacrifice his own life..sentimental but virtuous in a way..

(sorry, got no pic for it) No Boyfriend Since Birth by Claire Betita was a good read, too. it hit me most of the time. kinda saw a bit of me in her (Rudie, the main character in that book).. it was really nice. You know being in a world where in every corner you'll look there's a couple or two, holding hands, talking sweet, acting like it'll be there last day together..while on the other hand, YOU (should i say, "I") are alone, with no one else to call your own boy (or girl) depsite of the fact that you ("I") are intelligent, witty, pretty (or handsome), friendly & other traits you sure possess but still YOU ARE ALONE!!!

now don't get me wrong now.. i wasn't being bitter here.. well, maybe i was..but it's just that sometimes, it really nice to have a "specific" person along.. the kind of person you can hang out with & have loads of fun while just being yourself.. no pretendings..no expectations.. i got lots of friends but somehow it made me still feel empty inside.. i have totally GOOD (some were even BEST) times with them but in one way or another, i'm still looking for that "Someone"..

yeah, someone who'll pick my heart where it once fell... made it "beat" faster again like it did before.. (uh-oh..here i go again..)

but then again, i know im not yet ready.. it's not yet time for me to be committed again.. for the past, ahm..4 months now, i have been living free.. living out of the hell that a mistaken love brought me.. of course there were some out-of-their-mind guys who would try to get me into commitment again but i'm just not yet ready.. i don't know when i'll be or will i ever be ready again..

i was enjoying my single life but hey, maybe it would still be better if someone would come along. but again the problem is, im not yet ready. in the depths of my still-aching heart, there's still a piece of that too-good-to-be-true-now-it's-gone romance. I still couldn't see myself in the arms of someone else.. where once i had imagined & believed that i could only find myself in the arms of one man.. tsk tsk.. guess I'll never tire this out.. it'll always haunt me.. but so what?! gotta get goin.. gotta go forward..

i got a cool song down there.. i really love it!! it was soooooo nice & it'd hit me everytime i hear it play.. (as a matter of senseless fact, i play it everyday at home or just sing the song to myself).. kinda comforts me though, knowing that MY ONE & ONLY YOU is just there.. who?! i don't know yet.. maybe someone from the past or someone from the future.. i just don't know yet.. when i do, i'll tell you..

http://www.mm52.com/otheridols/jeon_ji_hyun/ wala lang toh!!he3..

Your Song
by Parokya Ni Edgar


It took
one look
and forever lay out in front of me

One smile
then I die
only to be revived by you

There I was
thought I had everything
figured out
goes to show just how much I know
bout the way life plays out

Chorus:
i take one step away
and I find myself coming back
to you
my one and only
one and only
you..

Now I know
that I know not a thing at all
except the fact that I am yours
and that you are mine

Oh,
if you told me that it wouldn't be easy
and Oh,
I'm not one to complain

Chorus:
i take one step away
and I find myself coming back
to you
my one and only
one and only

Chorus:
i take one step away
and I find myself coming back
to you
my one and only
one and only
you..

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the hell... i did it again.. my church friends thought they still haven't got the scare out of me.. but they did.. last Tuesday was terrible for me after watching Ju-on: The Grudge (pronounced as "D Groodje..bobo..hahahaha) but what i thought was the end of my misery was short-lived.. last Wednesday, we met at Gahe's place where we continued the sequel of the previous nights "horror" movie.. Ju-on: The Grudge 2 was scarier than the first.. i had both of my hands in my face while watching and screamed most of the time i wasn't expecting "Toshio" or "Kayako" to show up.. to add up to my terrorized soul, Gahe's sneaky younger brother & sister kept me leaping to me feet whenever they tried to really scare the hell out of me.. i was really freaking out.. i can't stand the movie any longer but i had no choice but to endure it coz there was no way to go.. i wouldn't risk going home alone cuz being "alone" was the last thing on my mind.. i was too afraid.. i had to stay & watch the movie, tore myself to pieces everytime a bloodcurdling scene was up & then regain composure.. at last, after long sighs of protests, the movie ended with a reborn "kayako" in a lil girl's body, killed "kyoko" & ignorantly walked away.. weird!! scary!! creepy!!


i don't know what has gotten into me to let myself be lulled into watching those films.. a friend even told me that i shouldn't have watched it if i couldn't endure the torment, the trepidation it would give me afterwards.. but i'm not a coward.. im not a cowardice.. i ain't backing up on a movie just because i'm afraid.. it was just terrorizing me after watching.. i imagine things most of the time, and even imagine myself in the same movie that i watched.. i even felt i was "Rika" (in the first movie..)

i couldn't sleep a wink after the movie.. i had to force myself to sleep cuz i still had class the following day.. i was praying hard, asking for forgiveness for being so stupid & letting myself be carried away by movies like that.. my faith was wavering at the moment.. i felt ashamed for acting the way i was acting.. cuz the movies really got deep into me..

at around 2:30 in the morning, still forcing myself to get a bit of sleep, i felt chills runnin down my spine.. my sister who was sleeping nearby had to give me another blanket to keep me warm.. she said she saw my shoulders shrugging.. i can't seem to understand the reason why i felt so cold..

i had those reminiscing moments.. & i found myself crying.. i was missing someone.. someone who really meant a lot to me & i meant a lot to him.. it then occured to me that this same feeling happened to me almost 2 years ago when i last watched a horror movie at a cinema.. hmm oh, yeah, "The Ring".. i got really paranoid bout that film & from then on refrained from watching those kinds of films.. i was staying at a boarding house in UP & my roomates suddenly didn't show up, leaving the room to me, (all by myself.. ) which in return gave me the creeps.. i don't want to stay in a room all by myself.. that night, being alone in my room, (in the boarding house) i texted him & informed him of my tormented careworn state.. he gave me a call. he asked me what he could do..

"i don't know.. i needed someone here beside me.. im so scared" I said, my voice trembling.

"it's 11:30 in the evening, are you telling me to go all the way there?!" he replied

"no, no, that's not what i meant. i just wanted to tell you how im feeling." came my dishonest answer

"ahm, let me see.. maybe i can sneak out of the house, take a cab & pick you up there. how's that?" he suggested.

"pick me up? where will i go? i can't go home at this time? my parents would wonder why i didn't stay at the boarding house!"

"why not stay at our place? you can sleep beside nikka.. her bedroom's near mine, i can go there anytime you'd feel scared again."

the feeling was so assuring. i decided to accept the offer cuz it would somehow take me out of my misery that night.. he came sooner than i expected him.. he made the cab wait at the gate cuz UP's closing their gates 10 pm..

once inside the cab, i crept closer to him & in return he hugged me so tight cuz i was really trembling. You might think it's over acting on my part but i wasn't. up to this time, i can't seem to comprehend why i was shaking & trembling & feeling cold.. i was really thankful he was there for me.. mad as he was, he never left me all by myself. he allowed me to get some sleep in his arms on the way to their place (which was some distance from UP)..

when we arrived, his sister was already asleep & there was no way he could just dump me in her room & let me stay there until the night was over without her permission. he suggested that we could just sleep together. i asked him if this was what he had in mind in the first place. he said no. i knew he saw "fear" in my eyes when he said that suggestion. he hugged me again & then firmly said,

"if you're afraid I might "do" you tonight, i won't. i'm not ready for it & so are you. we're not gonna do it unless we're ready & we won't hurt anybody else. i can even sleep on the floor while you sleep on the bed if you still don't trust me." then he smiled at me, waiting. waiting for my answer.

i thought hard. i was already there. i agreed but of course reminding him of his promise and made him promise to me for more than like 3-4 times. he didn't turn the lights off so it wouldn't be that dark. he knew i was still afraid. he tucked me in with some blankets, kissed me goodnight & turned his back on me. he said it would be better that way. i agreed & said goodnight to him & told him how grateful i was for his effort.

he was silent since the time he turned his back on me so i thought he was already asleep. i knew how tiring his day was but still made an effort to comfort me. i couldn't sleep.. i snugged in closer to the wall for a little warmth although he gave me a couple of thick blankets. i was trembling again. i was shaking but i was trying hard not to show it cuz i was afraid i would wake him. i wanted him to rest. he already did what he can do. that was more than enough. i faced the wall. (so we have our backs on each other, though they never touched). i offered a silent prayer. i knew i was putting myself in peril again. i then closed my eyes & tried to sleep. the shivers running up & down my body wouldn't leave me alone. in my mind, scenes from the movie kept on coming back. if only i could swear, i would have sworn never to watch movies of that sort again. i don't want this feeling again. to my surprise, he stood up without looking at me. he adjusted the aircon. it grew warmer. he must have increased the temperature. very sweet of him.

"feeling better?" i nodded.

he went back to his place and was still again. i kept my eyes open. i couldn't controll what was making me shiver. i guessed he can feel it, too or perhaps he wasn't sleeping after all. after about 10-20 mins of stillness, he moved. i felt the bed moved, too. he got 2 pillows. he hugged me from behind. a pillow between us & a pillow between the wall in me. he said i would feel colder if i went near the walls. he tightened his hug. it made me feel better. he was fighting the chills for me. he caressed my hair. as if making me feel that he was just there for me & that there's nothing to be afraid of. i dozed off. the next i knew, it ws morning already & had slept. i have never felt so rested in my entire life. although the night started out bad for me, it seemed good to me. i didn't have a dream nor a nightmare. i just slept there in his arms. feeling safe. secured. loved. cared for.

i reminisced. i cried. i remembered how it felt. how warm his embrace was. how he loved me back then. how he cared so much for me. how he forgave me for being so stupid to watch a film i just couldn't take. i cried & cried knowing that what i once had would never come back. it was over & i could never have it back. i felt sorry for myself. there it was again. that feeling in my stomach. that painful twinch in my stomach. it hurts. i cried & cried.

the sound of a raging alarm clock startled me. it was morning. i had slept. i dozed off again. i didn't dream of anything but i felt warm. i still had some dried tears in my eyes. my eyes felt swollen from those tears.

the chills left me. it was morning now. ihad to wake up. school's waiting for me to start another day. my parents counting on me to be the best. The Lord expecting me to act as He would have me do. gotta stop reminiscin. gotta let the past behind now.

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September 1, 2004 @ 04:57 AM

holler...

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woah, it's been so long.. i can't believe i have been this so busy.. sad to say my PC's down for almost 2 weeks now.. i don't have much time to fix it up cuz i have been concentrating (really!?) on my studies.. (both temporal & spiritual)

ever since the sem started, things were turning out pretty well for me.. im so glad i was able to really get a grip of my on-the-verge-of-giving-up situation.. hahaha.. i never really imagined it would really be this tough...

well, well, its mid-week & so far my week started out to be accident-free unlike last week where i had to endure injuries because of my stupidity and my carelessness... sometimes there are really weeks that aren't for me..

last night, we (my church friends) were at Sen's place & we watched Ju-On: The Grudge cuz i haven't seen that film yet..i told myself that i would only allow myself to watch such kind of movie if my friends would watch it with me.. i kinda freaked out cuz im really not into that kind of "horror" movies.. i do love movies but "horror" movies are the ones that i don't bug myself with.. im not interested in scaring myself to death & getting really paranoid.. ooh.. the movie gave me the creeps.. i even had to force myself to sleep last night when i arrived home.. i don't want to look down on my blanket cuz i was afraid i would see someone there.. i sneaked closer to my sister beside me.. & even tried to wake her up.. crazy me.. i even left the door of the bathroom open when i took a bath cuz i was afraid i might see "kayako" in there.. i looked at my back several times.. weird as it may seem but that's me.. i tend to get really paranoid on those movies & i can't help feed my imagination with crazy, scary stuff.. hahahaha...


so i think i gotta go now.. i'll be back as soon as i can.. got lots of things to tell.. lots of things to share..

{ music } Your song - Parokya ni Edgar
{ book } Nancy Drew - Case of the Missing Queen

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July 30, 2004 @ 05:29 PM

..and she will be loved...

woh...i missed my blog.. i missed blogging.. i missed the only place in the net where i really feel like ME.. this is me.. i have nothing to hide nor nothing to be afraid of..

it has been a month since i last posted my entry.. (considering that my entry really suck!!) time really flies so fast.. to think that it already has been a month & yet i felt like my days are getting longer where in fact they are getting shorter.. days are passing by so quickly that i can barely recall the last time i really had a good night sleep..

there are lots to tell with the days & weeks that had passed.. although i can no longer turn back time, i know i can always tell & retell the stories & experiences i had.. for me, it was worth sharing..

it doesn't really matter if the million users of the net won't even bother to read or get interested with what i have to write.. what matters is that im able to express what i really feel..

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